Thursday, October 2, 2008

It's One of Those Days

Despite the fact that somehow I managed to get through the hard times with teaching Ella to read and now she is reading on a 5th grade level, if there was one subject that I could pass off to someone else it would be teaching reading. The level of frustration involved for me is enormous. I just can't figure out a girl that is reading "mad, made; cap, cape" can read all that just fine and then get to "tap" and not be able to read it. Just freeze up right there and stare at the page like she's never read the word "tap" before in her life and thinks that the short sound for "a" is /e/. I just don't understand. No other subject has driven me to tears like reading has...even math and I'm no good at math.

I know one of the good things about homeschooling is that it drives you to better yourself because you must control your emotions. But I'm terrible at that. She'd probably have responded better if I hadn't been so hard on her and disgusted that she "couldn't" read...tap.

Poor girl. Now I have to go apologize.


Meagan said...

t least your frustration is about something that matters. Yesterday my frustration was at the lack of motivation on our gluing project.... now in the end it didn't really matter.... now reading... that matters. It is good to know though that I am not the only easily frustrated one.

Johanna said...

I've been there before, too. I didn't even do school today at all because I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it! I was already frustrated about the whole "post-office-losing-very-valuable-documents" thing, and didn't even attempt school. Good thing too, because when Aaron changed his mind about what snack he wanted (a normal behavior), I got so frustrated that I took the bowl of teddy grahams I had just poured for him back to the counter and slammed it down so that little bear cookies flew all over the place. Yeah, "I'm sorry" was happening here too.

Lawanda said...

Oh well, "I'm sorry"s from mommy are quite common here, too. Especially in the morning. Ugh, mornings are so hard for me. :-p